Chiaki Chat

At one point when I was a constant poster on the Forum I actually had everything she'd every done. Including TV shows and films whether I needed to download them using Bit Torrent, pay for DVD's or actually order DVD's and then record them to VHS TAPES! AND YES, I MEAN I USED TO GO TO A FOREIGN IMPORT SHOP FOR DVD'S WITH HER IN THE SHOW, FILM, ETC! Then record them TO VHS TAPES!

I was dead serious about what I posted on the Forum about creating roles for Chiaki to portray. The entirety of my Lady Yoma book series was meant SPECIFICALLY FOR HER TO PORTRAY LIVE-ACTION! I finished two manuscripts where the other main characters were also cast, but I decided to write Lady Yoma as a BOOK! To create not only interest, but to ultimately be able to have some sort of input whenever I would be approached to turn it into a movie.

I let a FEW PEOPLE read the BOOK MANUSCRIPT, and when I say manuscript I mean completed WRITTEN OUT BOOK. My normal process is to write out a complete book and then type it out where I FLESH OUT EVERYTHING. I finished two of these Lady Yoma and Lady Yoma the Dark Door, I scrapped both projects because my former fiancee was constantly paranoid that I'd end up cheating on her WITH CHIAKI, HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHAH! And running off with her, however?

Part of the reason WHY she was so paranoid was because before my former fiancee and I were lovers, we were friends, and she'd seen how I was able to accurately predict everything going on with Chiaki's career, AND!? I helped the guy from 3rd Eye Blind meet up with her, can't remember his name. AND!? My former fiancee also saw that in some of Chiaki's latter articles WHEN I WAS STILL ACTIVELY PURSUING ALL THIS AND POSTING ON THE FORUM, but? She saw the fact that Chiaki was ACTIVELY ANSWERING QUESTIONS I WAS LEAVING ON THE FORUM and that is because SHE IS PIYOPIYIHIYOKO I believe that is the log-on she uses on the Chiaki Kuriyama Forum, so?!

I decided to scrap everything, I couldn't focus on it anyway because my former fiancee was constantly on my @*& about swearing I'd run off with Chiaki if I ever got the chance to meet her personally. Now? All bullshit aside? Not gonna happen. It's a great FANTASY, but the 3rd Eye Blind dude did confirm that Chiaki was reading as much as she could of what I said on the forum. And I also got strange @*& PM's too, bottom line though?

I didn't get carried away with all of that. I enjoyed myself and worked hard, but in the end, I took the Zanlius route. I decided to destroy what I'd created in favor of making the woman I loved feel secure. Needless to say THAT WAS THE WRONG CHOICE and not because "Oh I missed out on meeting Chiaki", nope! No I MISSED OUT ON GETTING MY IDEAS OUT TO THE PUBLIC AND FINALLY BEING A PUBLISHED AUTHOR! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA! Sometimes you get the bear and sometimes...!?

The Bear gets you. But I feel good about the fact that I made my choice! And have ZERO REGRETS! I'm working on From Child to Man and I am not with my former fiancee and I'm doing what I need to do for my writing career and I'm almost done, so!? I said alllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll of that! Just to bring you up to speed and also explain why I'd disappeared from the Forums originally. It was to appease my former fiancee Stacey. Then? As you know, I never was able to REAPPEAR because I've been dealing with health issues ever since. OKAY! BACK-STORY DONE! NOW FOR THE AGE OF ULTRON PROMO!

"I'm gonna show you something.... Beautiful...!" hahahahahahahahahahah
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Wow i didn't know you had so much stuff on her.That's great that you supported her so much and went out of your way to get stuff.

So are you going to do anything with Lady Yoma now you are free to do so?

hahaha it's kind of funny that your ex thought you would run off with a women in a different country who doesn't speak your language and you not hers.And someone that has been pretty busy with work.Which is why alot of Japanese stars are single. WORK WORK WORK! That's their motto. Also i read that they get screwed by the agency.I read the agency take most of the money and gives out an allowance instead of paying outright all the money they have earned.And that's one reason why stars work none stop there. I can't confirm 100% it's just what i read,i think it was on an article on Aya Ueto on The Japan Times.
Pretty crazy,in the article it stated aya had made over 3 million in commercials that year, or even for half a year.But i wonder how much she got from that.

I can understand why your ex was so bothered with you spending so much time on chiaki.But that's the issue with relationships.If you really wanted chiaki then that would be an issue,but if all you wanted to do was write things inspired by her then that's a more creative action.But it can be hard to view things with a clear eyes which can make something like that hard to deal with in a relationship.

You could always look at it like maybe you weren't meant to write something like that,maybe you were meant to work on what your doing now.And that's why it went the way it did.

You know what's funny, man?! I was learning Japanese! So I saw why Stacey was all paranoid and all of that, but the reality is man;

I had no business talking to Stacey, for real. That's the God's Honest Truth. I was working hard and driven and I derailed myself by approaching Stacey because we were friends and I thought that because we got along so well as friends and I really enjoyed her company that this is who she really was.

Mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn, was I wrong. And when I found that out? I should have just kept on stepping, but I didn't. It is okay for her to have been concerned, but she knew what was going on with my life and why I was working so hard with not just learning Japanese. But also making my book material suitable to be able to be converted over for screenplay material, because I believed in Chiaki's talent. Now? I have no idea whether or not she's still got that uniqueness that inspired me in the first place. Being able to potentially work with a rare-talent is a once-in-a-lifetime type of thing sometimes and when you lose that guiding-light, sometimes, you never get it back. That's just a fact sometimes.

So while I get Stacey's position TO A POINT, the irony is that I was also learning and any time anyone tells you to GIVE UP KNOWLEDGE? You really need to think really hard about being with that person. Case in point, you are 1000% CORRECT, Japanese Talent-Agencies completely dominant the lives of their talent. The irony is that I abandoned everything for Stacey only to find out nearly 5 years later that Stacey was cheating on me with this dude named Dave.

HOW'S THAT FOR A PLOT-TWIST! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH! So she pretended to be so paranoid about me running off with Chiaki!? But she then dragged Dave up from the depths of side-piece slop and this was a man that she'd cheated with before when she was married to her husband Zane. So in the end? Stacey wasn't worth it, because she showed ZERO RESPECT for the fact that I was willing to sacrifice to take her seriously and respect her wishes and show her how much I loved her. This is why I said on the Forum that everything with her was and still is CONDITIONAL. She ultimately revealed herself to be a cheating woman-child who always does something like this when the pressure of having to be responsible and committed to WHATEVER she is doing at the time comes up. I will not lie that I was utterly disappointed when I saw that this type of just BIZARRE NOSEDIVE BEHAVIOR wasn't limited to just me. Her family wasn't too keen on trusting her either, so?

Like I said sometimes you get the bear and other times...? The bear gets you, well? The bear got me that time, BUT I'M STILL ALIVE AND BREATHIN! BACK YOU BEAR! BACK!

I moved our discussion to it's own thread because we are going off topic on the Flowers for Algernon thread.I want to try and keep all chat in it's designated thread and on topic.It might seem a little over the top.
But it Just makes all the other topics and threads valid.

Hope you understand.
 
 
Oh so you were learning Japanese at the time.I guess that would add to her worries.

I know that feeling.Talking to someone and thinking you have an idea on who they are (Women wise im talking here) Then finding out that women really can be a wolf in a sheep's clothes. Now people might say well that's sexist and all that nonsense.But it's not.Men can be dicks but tend to just do something straight up.Women seem to like playing games.
The worst thing about your situation and the one i went through is,it's not just about someone being different or a relationship ending,but when you have actually turned things down or given up on stuff because of them. That's the thing that really burns,looking back on those things you've lost and the places you could of been now if you hadn't of thrown those things away for someone that wasn't worth 5 minutes of your time.It might sound like were bitching about those experiences but for me it's more about making sure you learn from it and don't make those mistakes again. And you know what sometimes you just have  write about something that was negative and a bad part of you life and just let it out.I think the more you write or talk about those things the closer you can get to completely letting anything go to the point where you just completely forget those things ever happened.

Talking about chiaki's talent and that uniqueness.I feel she has still got something.Go and look at the video thread i started.When watching her i feel something there.I feel she's got something intriguing about her.
But the eye of the beholder.

Writing and typing to get bad blood out of your system is DEFINITELY the way to go! Totally agree with what you're saying AND I'm glad you see too that I understood her position about being worried, but? That's when it was on her to show that she was WORTH THE SACRIFICE I MADE FOR HER SAKE. Unfortunately it seems like more-&-more women doesn't seem concerned about that part and are now believing that it is just normal for a man to give up parts of himself or his aspirations solely for her sake.

My own belief on that is that we're raising girls with the expectation that they are simply SUPPOSED TO RECEIVE FROM MEN and as they become older and become women the smart and savvy girls understand that when a man or a boy makes that kind of sacrifice for her, then?

She has to appreciate that and respect the fact that he was willing to do that FOR HER. So don't make him look like an @*&! Or an idiot! However? Unfortunately, it is becoming a little too commonplace for the respecting of that kind of sacrifice for a woman by a man to become something to disrespect him over BY THE WOMAN HERSELF. Which is not only bizarre as hell! But counterproductive! Either way!? You're definitely right about the fact that working your way through it and actually getting it out of your system helps you to move on. Stacey was shocked that I called her on Feb 1st cuz I found out she'd been in the hospital for having cyst on her ovaries and she had to have the cyst removed.

I can be disappointed over what happened between us, but I DEFINITELY DON'T WANT HER TO DIE OR TO BE MAIMED OR INJURED OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT. And us being apart has forced her to have to finally start taking responsibility for herself and fighting her own battles or just sitting down and shutting up if she's not gonna do right for herself, instead of using me as a weapon against her family. As for me, wow, Japanese flashback...

Watashi mo wa? As for me? It's allowed me to finally pen a complete book and I'm typing it up and doing my best to get my health in order. In all honesty? I was stressed out like a ^^^^^^^^^^^ being with her. And so was she. So it panned out in the end. Chiaki wa? As for Chiaki? I am going to check out the link you posted and see what she's been up to in her career.
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And no worries, we definitely were OFF-TOPIC! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!